Happy 6th Birthday Bridger

I CANNOT believe that Bridger is 6 years old. How did that happen so fast? Wasn't he just a baby? A toddler that didn't listen to anything we said? A toddler that was so cute and witty and found so much humor in himself? Now, he is 6 and just finished his first year of "big boy" school. Hes 6 and already gone thru kindergarten?! Literally mind blowing.




I have the most energetic fun 6 year old. We survived kinder even though we are repeating, we survived. He learned so much, in school and about himself. We still have behavior issues but certainly not at the magnitude it used to be. When Bridger isn't in one of his moods and freaking out, he is such a blast to be around!! He is completely a different kid! We have so much fun together and talk about to many things. He makes me laugh seriously all the time. He definitely is the more emotional kid out of the 2 and definitely wants us all to know when he isn't happy about something or having issues, etc. I love his honesty. haha When it comes down to it, he can be pretty chill. hes a cool kid. he wears his heart on his shoulder, everyone is a friend. he forgets NOTHING. he might be a grudge holder one day hahaha! He is still 100% obsessed with his dad and is always looking out for him. He has such a sweet heart and was always telling his teacher such sweet nice things all school year. How beautiful she is, how shes the best, he loves her, etc.




With his ADHD its hard to get him to slow down long enough for a lot of things, I can see him being a determined kid/adult. a go getter. never stopping till he has what he wants. inventive. he is so street smart, he has so much common sense and sometimes says stuff before I can come up with the same answer.....lol....I can always count on him. he adores his brother. He has a super soft spot for his brother and I just love that. He will always be there to protect him.




Although we get attitude and drama as we call it from Bridger on a daily basis, he is SUCH a sweet loving little boy that I would never want to change. He makes me pull my hair out, but I know he doesn't mean to and he cant help it most the time. I just love him so much! And honestly love when we pick him up from school and he gets to come home with us! we miss him during the day. I am the lucky one that was chosen to be his mama, and I couldn't be more proud. He may have taught us way more in his 6 years then we could've ever guessed. I can't wait to see what the future holds with his awesome boy! He is so much like his dad, I know his path is going to be bright! He amazes me each and every day and again, I need to soak in these moments, it wont be like this for long. He wont love kissing his mom in a few more years. he wont love scratching my back and telling me how much he loves me in a few more years. he wont love me snuggling him in a few more years. he wont love me tickling him in a few more years. he wont love sleeping right inbetween ryan and I in a few more years.....these are the days. And I'm one lucky mama.






Happiest birthday to my sweet spunky funny loving 6 year old!!!

My sweet Beckett Ryker

I am so sad that I haven't kept up to date with this blog with Beckett as I did with Bridger. There are so many things you forget, almost all of it, it seems like. I like that I can go back and read about it with Bridger. I won't have that with Beckett. =(




Beckett is now 15 months old. How did time fly so fast? Seriously! then to not have my updates on here, I feel like the past year was a blur. He still is such a good baby. He is so chill and carefree. Right now he is wearing size 4 diaper (about to move to size 5) size 4 toddler shoe, 12-18 month clothing. He climbs on everything and can almost get on the couch by himself. That will be another thing for me to stress about. He is fearless which in turn leads us to not do certain things with him as he just doesn't stop. It is nothing but work when we take him places that he has that freedom, and he doesn't need that much freedom. haha. Beach, ski canals, pool, etc. He does have some attitude, but its so cute to me. He just gets pissed for a minute then you can just smile at him and he gives you the biggest grin. I absolutely love that about him. He smiles non stop! He still has the cutest cubbiest little hands, cheeks, arms, face, haha. Our night time routine has always included me rocking him in his chair in his room giving him his bottle, now he has a sippy cup before bed and he drinks it pretty quick because it isn't that much. He sets it down, sits back and leans against me and just snuggles up. He will play with my hair, or touch my nose, ears, etc. he will move around some, give me hug or kiss. we end up staying up entirely too late and way past his bedtime because I just love it so much! I don't want to give up those snuggles times, they wont be here forever.




Hes now at the age where he is trying to respond back to you. communicate I guess. I tell him to put something back and most the time, he actually does it. Bridger never would. still doesn't. lol! he mocks everything we do and he tries to help me all the time. He brings me his snack cup when he wants snacks, says baba when he wants a drink, He pulls bibs out of the drawer if he wants to eat and im taking to long. He says bite over and over and over when im eating and he wants some. He can say words that probably, I as his mother only can decipher. lol He says, mama, dada, baba, bite, puppy, bye bye, go, Bridger, ut oh, thank you, I love you, and im probably forgetting some. I love how he tries to communicate and tell us. He grunts a lot. my mom says he gets that from me. haha. im still feeding him the tiniest bites of everything because yes I'm THAT mom. he chokes on the snacks that dissolve in his mouth. not worth the risk for me. I feed him tiny bites. we make it work. hahaha!




I still can take him anywhere and everywhere. He is so sweet and will keep hugging me over and over while hes in the front of the cart, especially when hes tired. He has finally warmed up to the people at the gym, and actually goes directly to them when they hold their arms out. He cried maybe the first 3 weeks. Today he waved hi to the AC people that came to our house to fix our AC. which is a huge deal because this kid is SO shy! hes slowly warming up quicker then before. People constantly talk to him while we are out and about and he has ALWAYS mean mugged them and it cracks me up every single time. this kid and his faces takes after his mama. We show everything on our faces. Most people laugh some take is offensively. haha. He just that shy! hes that kid. Ive noticed lately he will smile more often at these random people then before. If hes not in the mood he hides behind me and slowly peeks around me to see if they are still looking at him. He still takes 2 really good naps a day and sleeps thru the night.




He is still so easy to entertain. Basically entertains himself. Bridger finally has started to play with him a little more. Bridger is still rough but I think it is so sweet that Bridger is trying. He loves his brother so much and he just wants to play so bad. He doesn't get that beckett cant do all the same things he does....when Bridger gets mad at him for getting into his toys or legos, or takes his stuff, Bridger will yell at me "mom, get your baby!" hahaha! cracks me up every time. He doesn't really like our new puppy because Donzi is constantly biting him and following him, taking his snacks and sippy cups. Donzi bites his hands and feet the most and pretty hard. I don't blame him for not really liking the dog. He likes me to sit with him on the floor when hes going into his tired mode....he climbs on me, hugs me, gives me tons of kisses and loves for me to tickle him, and just give him a little attention even though he isn't a huge attention seeker.




I still haven't taken him in for his first "real haircut" ive trimmed it myself here and there. tiny pieces. but his hair is so thin that I know if I cut it, it wont looks as full. Bridger had the same hair and I would crack up trying to do it and it was so thin you could see his scalp. So we are still sporting the baby hair and I actually love it. I want him to stay a baby. lol




I'm sure there is so many other things I would like to say but I can't remember right now. I just absolutely love this little boy so much. He fills my heart so much and certainly completes our family. There is just something so amazing about babies and their innocence and big hearts. No talking back, nothing negative or bad. Just pure happiness and delight. I sure am going to miss these days so much! I know its hard right now with both kids and a puppy at home and some days I feel like I'm about to lose it, but luckily, they go to bed, you regroup and tomorrow is a whole new day, woken up with the biggest smiles and baby laughter that make you so excited to get up and greet with.


I just see how big Bridger is and just turning 6 and talking back like a 16 year old and it makes me so so sad how quickly they grow. Find their own voice and independence and test your limits. I just want to bottle them up as babies and have it to keep and cherish forever. maybe its more sad to me because I know Beckett is our last baby. I would love more, but man its hard. especially when your husband is gone all the time. You gotta think what is best for your family. And I do feel like Beckett completes our family. I can still think back to his birth day, and I remember every detail of it and delivering him and see him for the first time with his fat thighs. I hope I never forget that. I still remember Bridgers as well. Such sweet life changing moments I never want to forget. Even tho the following days become a blur, at least the most important moment is so fresh in my memory!


For now, I get to enjoy this sweet sweet baby for another 9months before he is technically a "toddler" I am going to eat up every second with him and just slow down and enjoy every day. It wont be like this for long